HATRED DEEP INSIDE. GOT TO GET IT OUT! DON’T KNOW WHY I FEEL…..HATRED INSIDE?
There is a need, dear heart, to investigate the inner working once again.
Why carry such pain around with you when it is soooooo easy to let it go. That’s right. It is soooooo easy to let it go.
Just ask us, dear heart; and we will assist in the removal of the pain that you carry within your mind. Just ask, dear one; and if you are sincere in your desire to be ‘free’ then so be it…….
(Better you than me, right? Only kidding! No, I don’t want you to have any pain. Know how I got rid of mine? I asked; yep, that’s right. I asked; simple as that. Well, getting rid of all the pain wasn’t easy; yet it was simple.
How did I do it? Well, I asked The Collective Consciousness for help. Oh sure; I knew them for a while before I asked. Oh yeah; I learned to trust them first. Yeah sure; it took some years to trust them. I made them ‘put their money where their mouths were’ first, before I gave it a go. You see; I had a lot of rubbish to offload. Life had handed me a lot of rubbish to begin with and I didn’t enjoy carrying it all around…. Heavy…..!
So, what did I do? I’ll tell you. Once I got to know them (The C.C., that is) I was invited to hand over all of my woes to them, so to speak. It didn’t take long before I realised that I was improving. And, what do I mean by ‘improving’? Well, I started to be able to think upon my past without all the anger, the pain, the torment, the feelings of rejection; yes, I started to ‘let go’ of all the negative vibrations, you could say.
Yeah sure; I needed to do a lot of the work myself. I had to do 51% they said. 51% didn’t seem a bad thing to me. I only had to do 51% of the work and they would take away the rest; gratis. That didn’t seem such a bad agreement. So, I agreed.
It started pretty much straight away. I found things, things that had been eating me up all of my life coming to the surface for me to have a look at; terrible things that had haunted me all of my life. If you’ve read any of my Spiritual Experiences you can understand the type of things that started to show themselves. I had so much anger inside me my face could burst. I had so much rejection floating around my cells I wonder how I didn’t drown. I was a shipwreck; that’s for sure.
So I began the process in earnest. It took some years before I was free. I wasn’t a bad person; I was just a person with so much rubbish travelling along by my side, in my head, within my guts, I really don’t know how I managed to stay afloat. However; stay afloat I did and today I am so buoyant it even surprises me….
If you want to find out more you can go to The Game of Love & 51% page and start there. What have you got to lose if not a lot of excess baggage; and we all know the price we pay for that; right?)
Hedgehog (Listen while you read)
Giving up, dear one?
Are you going to give up on living a life that suits ‘you’?
It doesn’t have to suit any other person, dear heart; this is true; as long as it suits YOU.
Think upon this and see if what you want to do, and what others want for you to do is one and the same. Then think upon the matter of – whose life are you living?
(Sometimes we do this, don’t we; we live the life that others want us to live, which is not necessarily what we may want to do.
And, why do we do this?
Sometimes we do this because we fear not doing this. Sometimes we may feel obligated.
And, what does obligation lead to?
I’ll tell you, dear friend. Obligation leads to a life that we do not necessarily enjoy. It is that simple. Obligation can sometimes be a road to dismay. Indeed this can be true.
And, why do we feel obligated?
Sometimes we can feel obligated when someone does us ‘a good turn’, so to speak. Indeed. When someone does us a good turn, we feel obligated.
And, what is a ‘good turn’?
It can be as simple as giving us birth, or it can be as complicated as allowing us to use their material possessions. Indeed, it can be great or small.
Obligation is a ‘double edged sword’ that can lead to dismay.
And so, what can we do when we feel obligated?
We can think upon this to ensure that it doesn’t prove a ‘double edged sword’. We can investigate our feelings to ensure that we are not placing ourselves into a position which shall cause us dismay. For, if we do, are we not doing ourselves an injustice?
Yes, or no?
This is the question that we must pose to ourselves whenever we feel an obligation.)
Hippopotamus (Listen while you read)
Really it’s a lovely day for basking in the sun.
But if you go out in the heat, put your skin cream on.
Don’t forget to look after yourself, we all have our needs.
And when life hands you some good, say ‘well done and please’.
(The Hippopotamus personality is one that ‘takes to heart’ those things that are spoken. Whether or not they are intended to be hurtful or are a ‘throw away line’; the Hippo personality will, alas, take them seriously…
This is a problem for the Hippo personality. He/she can be so subjective; it can be difficult to communicate with them. They will behave in such a hurt fashion because of a sensitivity that is all too common.
When dealing with a Hippo personality is it essential to be aware of the preponderance toward self harm. They, the Hippo personality, will endeavour to persuade you that they are really feeling fine; and yet those tell tale signs of hurt will show themselves.
Be gentle with the Hippo personality; he/she is as gentle and as kind as a leaf blowing in the wind taking the seeds of life to positions upon earth where a new tree can take root. However; this gentleness and kindness has a sharper undertone that is the bane of their existence; it cares little for themselves. It lavishes all of its love and care on others. An honourable trait we may think however; when it is all said and done; charity must begin at home.)
Horses (General) (All Horse reflections can be found here)
Horses, those grand and elegant creatures meant for bringing excellence into the hearts of men. Horses were and are man’s good friends. They have served man well. Have they not? Moreover, their behaviour is not foreign to man. No, dear ones, the horse has mimicked man ad infinitum, and this beauty, this might, is being usurped by the car and other such machinery. Is it not? Man has it in his power to allow or disallow many things. One is to ‘hold on high’, or to ‘make rubbish’, and this is what we see with the beauteous qualities of the horse. He is mostly forgotten, mostly forgotten.
We say to man, remember your friends, do not forsake them. Truth is truth is truth is truth. Numbers are dwindling of those who care for the horse kingdom. This brings great sadness to bear upon the kingdom, which has enabled man to survive in quarters where otherwise he would have perished; there be no doubt.
Following are some of the energies associated with the horse family. Read on dear ones, and remember the love, the grandiosity of ‘the horse family’.
(We are very fond of saying ‘what grand creatures’ when we look at the very beautifully designed horse. However, many lay forsaken in fields and groves lamenting time past. Are we to share a common goal of excitement and adventure or are we going to allow ‘progress’ to usurp our ‘connection’ with the horse kingdom? Not for some! Some remember and admire and allow the qualities of the horse kingdom to be held on high. Others are not so caring and shame is brought upon them by the cruelty they exert upon our once needed friend.
And so it is that when we are attracted to the horse kingdom we are being asked to remember the finer things in life: Friendship; community; love; generosity; comradery; happiness; the list is subject to each individual’s inner most needs. Yes, my friends, the horse kingdom has much to offer by way of friendship; kinship and a common love for life.)
Hyena (Listen while you read)
I get ‘bad press’ you know. Could it be my looks? Is there more to me than what one can see?
Is there a deeper more personable character that no one knows; just me?
It’s true, I don’t care for silly games; for those things which the masses expect and desire.
No, that’s not me. I just want to live my life as it suits me; not bothering anybody; unless they bother me.
No, I just want to live my life as it suits me and those I love.
Is there something wrong with that?
(What causes me distress is when someone uses my outward appearance to proclaim that I am something that I am not. Yes, this distresses me.
I am not what you see. I am not what you see and I am not disposed to show you the real me for; I do not need to excuse myself, or give you reasons why I am as I am. I am quite happy with myself, thank you very much; and do not require your approval. This is as it is and shall always be.)
Ibex (General) (Listen while you read)
Today we have the wonderful Ibex to see. And this is what the Ibex personality does; it ‘sees’. Yes, this wonderful personality has the innate ability to ‘see’ those things around it that others fail to see. We shall explain:
(Some personalities close their eyes to their surrounds; they do not want to see. Yes, this is as some personalities are. They do not wish to see because it causes them pain. This is does. It causes them pain to see the reality of their surrounds. This can cause great distress for such personalities. And why does this cause distress? We’ll tell you. This causes distress because sooner or later the truth shall dawn upon them, and they will feel bewilderment at their lack of objectivity. This they will. They will feel a lack of objectivity, and this shall cause them distress.
Therefore, it is better to be as the Ibex personality and allow ourselves to see our surrounds as they truly are; not tainted with the brush of deceit nor self deceit. No, dear friends. It is better to see those things that surround us with a clear vision that protects us.
Protects us; we hear you say!
Yes, my dear friends; seeing those things that surround us with clear intent protects us.
And from what does it protect us?
From our own lack, should we fail to see with clear sight. This is right, dear ones. We are far better protected from our surrounds when we allow the ‘truth’ to be seen.)
Pure bred, that’s for sure.
Pure bred, and what’s more.
Pure bred that’s me, hee-hee, hee-hee.
(Pure bred; yes that’s me. I have a purity that you cannot see; that is so my friend. Beneath this exterior lies a heart of gold. You may not see it; I don’t show it to all. No, I don’t show it to all because all are not capable of seeing it, and I do not want to shine when it is not seen. To explain: I am also quite a show-off. Yes, that is right. I am also a show-off who loves to perform. However, I do not show-off to all and sundry, no; I show-off to those who will admire me. Only to those who will admire my qualities. And, further to that, I ‘know’ who has the innate quality of understanding. Yes, that is right. I understand who has the innate quality of perception. Yes, again I say, that is right.
Not all have this quality, and I am not going to waste my time showing-off to those with an inability to appreciate my qualities. No, indeed not. Why oh why would I want to waste my qualities on those who will be none the wiser? This is the way that it is. Straight down the middle…..
Well, this reflection, like most, has been a surprise to me. Knowing this will help me to understand some whose personalities, in this regard, have been a mystery to me. Already I can see a number of individuals who share this aspect of personality; truly a great insight for me. I hope that it is for you too.)
Koala (Listen while you read)
I thirst, I hunger.
(And for what do I hunger…? A leaf here, a leaf there… And what are leaves? They are life my friend. I hunger for life. I hunger for everything associated with being alive. I yearn to live. I yearn to have all those things that interest me. And what interests me? Why everything; everything interests me. I love to enjoy all of the fruits of life, so to speak. I sit and I yearn. I yearn to absorb all about me. I yearn to do all things. I can’t though; you see that’s just not me. I yearn to do these things, indeed I do. However, I’m not in a position to be able to do all things; not yet. But someday; someday I’ll take that bull by the horns and go out into the world and do all those things that I yearn to do. Until then, I’ll sit and wait for life to bring those things to me. That’s what I’ll do; I’ll sit and wait for life to bring me those things. Won’t I? Or will I need to take stock of myself? Yes, do I need to stock of myself? Perhaps that’s what I need to do. Or perhaps I need to take stock of myself and go and get those things for which I yearn. Hey;….. perhaps that’s it. Perhaps…… Hmmmmmmm it is quite cosy here. I don’t have anything to do; right? Hmmmmmmm..
Perhaps our friend the Koala personality needs a little more ‘get up and go’ to get up and get into life. He/she certainly would like to be able to do all of the wonderfully exciting things that life has to offer. However, there appears to be a little vacillating going on which prevents the Koala personality from taking chances; taking risks. Indeed this is a little sad for the Koala personality, for with a little more thought (and strength of conviction) all of his/her yearnings could be satisfied.)
Kudu (Listen while you read)
How are you? Never mind the rat race; it won’t go away! Never mind the things that bother you; they won’t go away! Better to accept all things; don’t rebel, don’t object. Better to remain at peace; at peace where you do best.
There are those times when all we need to do is to ‘accept’. It won’t mean sacrificing your integrity; it simply means allowing others to think and do as they seem fit…….
(Halleluiah brother; that means that if I let you live your life; you’ll let me live mine..!
No? What do you mean? You won’t let me live mine…! Well…. tough! That’s what I say. Tough! I don’t care what you say; I’m gonna live my life how I want to and if you don’t care for that you can go and sit on a cactus; for all I care…. That told him; yeah ..! @#$??!@#@…
Seriously though; what does it matter? What does it matter what anyone else thinks? We’ll never all fully agree; that’s an impossibility. We may come close to agreeing however; the reasons for the agreement will be based on similar yet, not the same reasons. There will always be slight variances of thought between us; based on the fact that our lives run similarly however; not the same course.
The best that we can hope for is a tolerance and acceptance of our differences. This is all that is available to us. When we can accept these facts we can allow the differences, and even enjoy them.
And so, my friends; see your friends, your partner, your foes as different to yourself yet with complete knowledge that the difference can be the very fact that has allowed you their presence in your life. You may find (even with your foes) that the difference between you is not so very vast after all.)
Leopard (General) (Listen while you read)
Well, well, well. So you think you know all that there is to know?
Huh, that’s what I say; huh.
If you think that you know ‘all that there is to know’, then tell me; go on, tell me.
I bet that you don’t know everything!
You should look inside your own cupboard before you look into others; that’s for sure.
(Many of us do that; don’t we! We take a gander into the lives of others, and allow our own lives to meander here and there.
What do we mean by this?
It is simple, dear ones.
We look into the lives of others; yes, we put our noses into the laundry of others and watch them get dirty.
“Oh,” we hear you say. “We do not do this…!”
Oh yes, my friends; we do, do this; indeed we do.
We are all guilty of this; it is a simple human trait that we all share; the trait of being ‘nosey’.
“Oh,” we here you say again. “We do not do this!”
And yet, dear friends; we know that with a little quiet contemplation you will begin to see where your nose is looking into the laundry basket of others, whilst your own laundry may need a clean.
That’s right, my dear friends. Our laundry may need a clean.
Once this is done, and we understand why our laundry gets soiled we may not care to investigate the laundry habits of others. This shall be the result of ‘understanding and compassion’ for the myriad ways that we each soil our clothing. Indeed.)
Had a nasty thing happen yesterday; something, somewhere, somehow.
Heard a rumour; it wasn’t good; these things happen somehow.
Thought I knew what life was about; guess I’m not so smart.
Heard a nasty rumour yesterday.
(What’s in a name; a rose by any other name would smell as sweet. How true are these words? Indeed they send a timely message. A message that each of us need to hear. And, what is this message? It is a message of remembering. Of remembering who we are and what we are doing here. Is it not?
Firstly; what’s in a name? Everything; everything is in a name. Yours, mine, theirs, they all mean so much to us. And what happens when our names are sullied? Why, everything; everything happens when our names are sullied; do they not? We feel gutted; we feel betrayed; we feel that we’d like to crawl away and hide. And why do we feel this way? We feel this way because our name means everything. Yes, everything.
Rumours are created when someone sullies our name. That’s right. Were it not for a name we would not feel the brunt of their vehemence, so to speak. If it were not for our name we might avoid the hurt and unjustness of the slant of tongue.
Yes, my friend, our name is everything.)
Llama (Listen while you read)
One, two, three, four
All in together; let’s open the door.
Five, six, seven, eight
One more for company; it’s never too late..!
(And this is what we would like to tell you about the wonderful world of the Llama.
Llama’s have been around for a year or two; have they not? Indeed, my friends. Llamas have been around for many a year.
So too, those who find joy in the company of the beautiful Llama. They (those who enjoy the Llama) have been around. Indeed. They have been around; up and down; even inside out..!
Does this surprise, dear hearts? Yes? No?
We shall continue.
Those who adore the Llama are those who (in general) have seen their fair share of life.
And, what is life?
Life, my friend, is a mixture of variables. Indeed it is.
Life can be for some, pleasant and gay. For others it can be damnation. Indeed, ’tis true.
For others there can be heartache, or not heartache; melancholy, or not melancholy; romance, or not romance; you get the drift.
For those souls who enjoy the delights to be found in the company of the wondrous Llama, there will be a mixture of all that ‘life’ has to offer.
Oh yes, my friends. He/she will have tasted many of life’s mixture, to be sure.)
Llama (Listen while you read)
Hello there; you with the stars in your eyes. Love never made a fool of you; you used to be too wise.
And now; you are allowing the stars to hide your view! Better take a closer look or two.
Yes, that’s what we say; take a ‘closer’ look. Don’t want to be the last to know!
(Sometimes we can do this; can’t we? We can walk around with our eyes closed; so to speak. And why do we do this? We can do this because sometimes we don’t want to see. That is right my friends. We would rather not see some of the things that are happening around us. And why do we do this? We do this for a multitude of reasons.
Some of us prefer not to see the truth; this we do to protect ourselves. Naturally, we are not protecting ourselves by having an attitude such as this however; we ‘think’ that we are protecting ourselves, and will continue to behave in this manner regardless of the obvious.
Some of us have a need to shelter from the harsh realities of life. Some of us need to be encased in a feeling of denial so as to feel more comfortable within.
Many of us refuse to see the reality before us because of the thought process needed to evaluate the condition. This requires effort; and some do not want to invest the energy needed for such musings.
There are indeed a multitude of reasons for this behaviour; as stated. However; this behaviour is certain to cause widespread damage throughout our lives. It may seem harmless to allow ourselves to take shelter (for whatever reason) from the truth; however dear friends, this will most certainly end in harm being done.)
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The updated Animal reflections (alpha order) can be found below